Planet Earth Poetry’s Interviews shine the spotlight on our featured poets and their new collections. This new initiative aims to pair interviewers with poets wherever possible.
Christine Schrum: “This is my story, and I/ am telling it,” the persona asserts in the first poem of Bad Weather Mammals. How did this powerful collection come into being?
Ashley Elizabeth Best: That’s such a great question and I’m glad you asked! While writing my first collection I was deep in coming to terms with many changes and challenges in my life. I was living on disability support and relearning my body after surgery (and nearly dying) and life as a disabled woman. I’m not sure why I didn’t identify as disabled yet; I think I thought I wasn’t allowed to, like I was waiting on some invitation from an invisible committee, which was quite silly actually because I was living on ODSP (Ontario Disability Support Program).
What changed? The world and my life. I distanced myself from those who made me feel shame about living on disability support and began openly talking about my experiences with my body. I realized that what I needed when I started my writing journey almost 20 years ago was to have someone else write and talk about their experiences as a disabled person, to create a space where we can be vulnerable safe, and honest about our lives. My goal is to provide that space for others through deep listening and writing.
CS: I love how you use the filling out of bureaucratic forms—disability support, social services, character witness letters—as poetic form. Can you tell me a bit about this choice?
AEB: I love hermit crab poems. The hermit crab is a species of crab that moves frequently. Every time it outgrows its shell, which is often, it moves into another container. Sometimes, it's another shellfish’s empty shell, a piece of LEGO, a tin can, or a pen cap. They are always growing and adapting to their environments. We live in a world that demands disabled folk adapt to the world with no expectation that the world will make adaptations for us.
The idea came to me while I was going through some old documents and found some of my old ODSP forms. I never felt like I had an outlet to speak back to a system that kept me in a poverty loop, all while in the guise of assisting me. Documentation like medical or government forms, is not often written by disabled folk, rather they are written about us. Medical files are compiled by our doctors and a lot of patients never see them. They are narratives created outside of us and not always for us. I have found it particularly powerful to use medical documentation and forms received from disability support programs to add a human element to vicious bureaucratic systems meant to exclude and punish the sick, poor, and disabled.
CS: In one poem, the persona imagines taking refuge in the heart of a whale. In another, she writes, “I think if the moon knew me, it would take my side.” What role does nature play in your poetry?
AEB: Nature plays a huge role! I’ve always been eco-minded and grew up (partially) in the wilds just south of Algonquin Park. My grandfather taught me a lot about respecting nature and her limits. It helped me decenter myself in the bigger context of life on this planet, and I learned a lot about respecting the boundaries of the natural world and its creatures. We have one planet, and I will only ever have one body, and I think there’s a great symmetry there.
CS: How might poems about bodies, medicine, and mental health foster important conversations—and perhaps even sociopolitical change?
AEB: Bless those who are seen and not silent. Silence and shame are such destructive forces. I have lived in silence about a lot in my life but I refuse to now. Those who are able (and safe) to be open about their experiences help to create space for not just a bigger conversation but real action and change. No one should suffer in silence, and solutions to wider systemic issues are only possible with the experiences of those living through the issues we seek to change. Through support, resistance, and persistence, I truly believe we can create actionable goals and change.
CS: What’s next on the horizon for you as a poet?
AEB: Thank you for asking! I’m currently working on a new poetry manuscript and a book of essays. Three years ago, my partner and I became the victims of gun violence; our vehicle was struck by bullets while parked at our apartment complex and my partner was shot. Both books are about the shooting in different ways. The essays use the lens of the shooting to examine a lifetime of trauma and familial dysfunction (CPTSD) while the poetry book examines our concepts of home and finding joy after life-altering trauma.
In the immediate future, I’m very happy to be touring Bad Weather Mammals and spending time with my baby nephew.
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